Is she just after holidays, when I want commitment?
After searching on various sites for an Eastern European partner, and beginning to think that they were all scammers, I came upon your excellent site, and following your advice signed up to the equally excellent Russian Ukrainian Women site.
It was on this site that I met Yulia. I am 62, and Yulia is 46, and after exchanging a number of messages we had our first conversation on Skype - and I fell totally in love with her. After a number of conversations on Skype, I suggested a meeting. She lives in a large industrial city in Siberia, and I suggested that I came over to her city, but she did not want me to do this, telling me that everyone I would meet (taxi drivers, etc) would be dishonest and try to defraud me, and it would be better to meet in Europe.
So we had our first holiday in Paris. On our first day, I asked her to marry me, but she refused me, saying that we did not know each other properly (and with hindsight, she was totally correct). We had a second holiday that year, but after returning to the UK I decided that she was probably not the right person for me - she has never told a partner that she loves them (not even her ex husband of 10 years) was not tactile, was often very critical of me, and seemed very reluctant to commit to coming to my country to be with me.
So I wrote her a message, telling her how sorry I was, and explaining my reasons to her. After about a week, I started to get messages from her on Viber, almost always emojis of hearts, kisses, goodnights, good mornings, etc. I would sometimes reply, but not always, and some days neither of us would contact the other.
There then followed about 6 months, during which I met 2 other ladies, neither of whom were for me for various reasons. At about this time there was also a chance that I would not be able to have anyone living with me, as my landlord was refusing me permission to have anyone live in the house I was renting other than myself (and it was a large 4 bedroom house! I now, unsurprisingly, own my own house) At this time, I asked Yulia if she would be interested in just meeting up for holidays, with no prospect of coming to live with me, and she said that she would.
I then bought my own house, and contacted Yulia to tell her that I wanted us to give it another go, and we have had another 3 holidays together this year. On the first holiday, I asked her why she had said yes to seeing me again, as most women would not want to know a man after he had sent her a message ending it, and she said that it was because she remembered how good our time together was. And all 5 holidays we have had together have been excellent.
This now brings things up to date. On our last holiday I asked her if she would want to come to the UK to be with me, and she said that she would. So when I got home, I made enquiries about the Visa process, and sent Yulia a message telling her it could happen relatively quickly. I suggested that we had a phone conversation about it (due to the really bad connection on Skype in Siberia, we gave up talking on Skype a long time ago, and communicate outside of holidays on Viber. I say communicate, because I rarely get any text from her, although I myself write her text, with 95% of her messages being emojis) but she found excuses as to why we could not talk, and after a few days she said that it was good news that we could get the Visa quite quickly, but to delay applying for it until the spring, because her mother is due to have an operation on cataracts in one of her eyes and she wants to be with her to support her - she did have a similar operation on the other eye a few months ago
So I now wonder whether she really does want to come to the UK, or if she will just find other excuses not to come. She has told me that it is easy for me, but for her it is a big step to leave her country, which is undoubtedly true. On the positive side, we do feel like we are a couple when we are on holiday together, she is good company, and we share very similar interests. Unlike a number of the other ladies that I have met, she is not constantly looking for me to buy her expensive presents, and is actually quite careful with money, although obviously I have paid for all of the holidays as well as buying her a number of gifts. On the negative side, she is sometimes very critical and has a cruel tongue, to the extent that she has criticised me for complimenting her - and I thought that was impossible for a woman!!! Other than when we make love, she does not allow me to kiss her properly (just a peck on the cheek is allowed) or to hug or hold her. And although I stopped my membership of the site on which we met a long time ago, if ever I look at the site most days she has logged on - why? She does not work in her country, so is this just boredom?
I feel that I am being torn in 2 directions, with my heart telling me one thing, and my head putting doubts into my mind. I would welcome an outsider's view of the situation, particularly one who has experience of the Eastern European women's psyche.